Until Further Notice...

This has been a roller coaster season of not understanding much of anything that is going on.

Both of my boys are sleeping and there is worship music playing in our hotel room.  I was able to get a few hours sleep once we got home from Cade's pre-op appointment.

Cade has been coughing off and on for the past few weeks.  His nose has been a bit runny and he just hasn't been at 100%.  I have done literally EVERYTHING I know to do in order to get him better.  His surgeon put him on an antibiotic that he reacted to so we had to take him off.  He has been sleeping with a eucalyptus filled humidifier, rubbed down with an all natural version of vapor rub, eaten only organic foods and so much more.  On top of all this we have been covering him in prayer and worship music.  Well... surgery is a no go.

The Nurse Practitioner came in and checked his lungs and told us she would have to clear him with the Anesthesiologist.  While she was gone the child life specialist came in to walk us through what the process would be.  She came back in the room and said they couldn't risk the increased chance of him getting pneumonia.  It felt like we were kicked in the gut.

I went through this ridiculous overflow of emotions from angry to confused to hugely disappointed.  The most difficult part by far was the fact that Bob and I had emotionally prepared our hearts for what was happening.  We both called our moms and said, "It's canceled and we don't want to talk about it right now... we will call you later."  Looking back, that wasn't quite the most sensitive thing we could have done in that moment.  So, after some tears flowing from a weary heart and a good nap, we have come to terms with it.

After much begging from my mom and dad :-) we have made the decision to stay in Oakland through the weekend and make it a really joyous and fun time with just the three of us... something we haven't done too much since Cade was born.  (The just 3 of us time, not the fun part - lol).

We are walking distance from several fun shops and restaurants.  Our cabinets are stocked with groceries and our hearts need peace and rest.

As of now, the surgery is rescheduled for the first week in March (yuck) but there are 2 dates between now and then that we could get into if other people cancel for whatever reason.

Above all else, we know (even if we forgot it a few hours ago) that God's faithfulness, grace and mercy are overflowing and we can tap into them at any point in time.  We also know that his timing is perfect and like my sweet friend Inga said, maybe God will have a surgery day of his own with Cade tomorrow!!

Choosing to walk around rocks of offense we don't understand and focus on The Name Above All Names!!

We love yall,
Bob and Kimberly